Thursday, August 14, 2014

I really want to love somebody

I have been with Javier Hernandez now for 3 yrs....

He still hasn't introduce me to his son, or any of his family members.... I did ask me why at one point, and he says he doesn't want his son to have another mom, I never mention that. I just wanted to met him. and get to know the kid... But never know what could happen in our relationship. He tells me he loves me, and wants one million more times with me, and that is sweet of him, but question is does really mean it?
I wasn't to crazy about him when we started to go out, but i got to know him for months, and i fell in love with Javier, He finally purpose to me, and i had accepted and said yes. But i believe in my heart now that it is time that i meet his son Daniel. and family.... I also feel like he isn't ready to introduce me, and wants to keep me in the dark. It's not right, but i get it now.  He wants to keep me a secret. but his family does know about me. and that's good... Our plans are to go to Vegas and elope... And when we return we can have a bbq reception. But my dream is to be the next David Tutera brida.... And have the wedding i've always dreamed of...
I am scared and nervous about this, it's a big commitment, and i am willing to give it a try, with Javier Hernandez...  i love him...